Pity Wedensday!

I’m not sure if it is due to the stress at work or missing my family or Bryan’s upcoming trip but, it was a really bad last 3 days at work.(Jan22nd) During this time I remember noting I needed to have Bryan look at my front left tire. I thought it looked low but again it could be just me.

Let me bring you up to speed a little. Bryan will be on the West Coast (Nevada/Arizona) for a convention. The Fam is on the Northeast coast. This means my family is spread out coast to coast & I’m in the middle! Positive Voice: This is actually a good thing I can get to either coast fast.

We are very short handed at work. We all are juggling multiple jobs.We still have people that need to take off for 1 reason or another which means a little more work on some days. While the others complain about the extra work load I try to keep positive. Positive Voice: I’m thankful I have a job.

So Wednesday I was really down. I kept having conversations in my head, working trying to be a good Team Player, & being a supportive wife & mom. Then Pity Voice: Why are MY dreams being taken away? Why is it that everyone I love is taken away from me?? What did I do to deserve this? Why don’t I just be as selfish as others around me?? They seem to get what they want all the time. Positive Voice: Because you would feel worst being like them. You know how much it would hurt God & people you care about if you were that selfish! During all this I have to hold back tear, answer the phone without the quiver in my voice & to sound like I have no cares in the world. The Positive Voice: It’s ok, there is a plan & at this time you must follow God’s plan not your own. Things are not as they seem. There is a different direction God needs you to follow. God needs you to spend more time with your parents or Ashton. God is handling your concerns just give him time.

I can usually pull myself out of the pity by thinking of my work in my yard. Think of something Brylee has done funny lately. Did you know Brylee's middle name is Poppy? LOL I thought of the trips we are planning to see the family. The quick long weekend trips with Bryan we talk about. Ideas for the house. (Something I know Bryan cringes inside every time I say, "I have an idea(s) I want to bounce off you") Then something around me would cause me to start the negative thoughts all over again. Mr. Pity just did not want to go AWAY!!!!

Fast forward to Friday.

I had a message on Thursday reminding me of my hair appointment on Friday. I completely forgot. So with a little re arranging I was able to make the appointment. I again remember my front left tire looked low & ask Bryan to look at it. After my appointment & supper I told Bryan when we got home that he should pull his car into the garage to load up for his trip. (BELIEVE me the Mini is PACKED!!) We would not have to worry about anyone breaking into his car (Not that we have a problem in our area but why take a chance. Hey Petunia belt & hat was packed in there. Very valuable to her.) LOL and a big reason is so no one would see Bryan packing up his car to go on his trip. I do not like to let others know Bryan is gone. NOTE: I do not post it on FB that Bryan is out of town. We do let a few family members know. I tell a couple of co-workers so if I don’t show up to work they know to call 9-1-1 for a welfare call. (Checking on someone) Bryan sends out a”Where is Bryan” to the Reserves letting them know he is not in town. All these are people I trust & feel safe with. This is just a precaution I take for my safety.

Saturday Morning.

Bryan & I go to I-HOP for breakfast. Then a quick stop into Wal-Mart & pick up a few things for his trip. Next thing you know Bryan is off to Bullhead Az. After a little housework I’m off on my errands. At one point I decided to stop at QT for a diet coke. (I never stop at QT for a drink.) I notice my tire again & think is it really low or is it my eye sight. Then I remember I need to check on picture we are having framed so I go the opposite direction that I had started & go check on it. Then I go to Calloways just to look around. When I came out I see the tire again. So I decided that God is telling me to have that tire check. (Mmmm each time I started off in a different direction God kept sending me back in the direction of Discount Tires.) I was around the corner from Discount Tire so I decided I would have them check it for me. That must have been the correct answer because when I went to make a left turn, the roads were clear & I went without any problems. (Note: I do not like making left turns on multiple lane roads.) They checked the pressure & it only had 20# of pressure. They told me that I would have ruined the tire if I had driven to Rockwall on it. Positive Voice: THANK YOU God for pushing me to take care of this tire. God Voice: See I’m still here. I’ve got you!!!! Insert a BIG smile & tears here. Me: Yes God, you are still here for me. THANK YOU!!!

Well as you can see God answers prayers & questions. Pity Wednesday was just a bad day. I received so many answers the whole week letting me know that God has this.

Now off to visit with friends & family & more answers from God.